I hate that I'm Like This

[dhampyresa]

I have the memory, intelligence and emotional capacity of a fucking sponge. I am so sorry for everyone who has to, has ever had to and will ever have to deal with me in any way, shape or form.

I also had a breakdown this morning that revealed to me that I'm currently suicidal (again) and have been for a while without noticing (I have the emotional capacity and intelligence of a sponge).

Also this heatwave is gothphobic and I will not stand for it. I will instead lie in a dark room, being miserable, unable to sleep and trying my best to keep my flesh from touching itself, for it.

Comments

[ellenmillion]

Sends you a ton of love. (There's a sponge joke here, but I'm not sure how to land it...)

[slashmarks]

Sending internet hugs if they're welcome. I hope you're feeling better soon.

[muccamukk]

I like dealing with you, for the record. You're generally pretty cool. I hope you hit a better patch soon.

[princessofgeeks]

I'm so sorry. Hope things get better for you soon.

[isis]

I hope you can get the help you need ♥ And I completely sympathize about the heat, it's terrible all over but especially in Europe right now.

[sovay]

I also had a breakdown this morning that revealed to me that I'm currently suicidal (again) and have been for a while without noticing (I have the emotional capacity and intelligence of a sponge).

You don't have the emotional capacity and intelligence of a sponge, you're suicidal and it's too hot to be embodied.

*hugs, touchlessly*

[kore]

Ohh hon I'm so sorry. I hope you feel a bit better soon. Awful heat always makes everything worse, too. //hugs

[sathari]

I like dealing with you--- no apologies needed.

Heat is soul- and sanity-destroying. If you can lie on cold things (ice packs, sheets you've put in a fridge/freezer), or have them lie on you, A++++++ would recommend as a fellow heat-intolerant type. (I have been known to keep an ice pack between my thighs in the name of "keep my flesh from touching itself" if that might help.)

[yuuago]

That really sucks, mate.

And heatwaves are absolutely gothphobic! Terrible.

[hokuton_punch]

♥ ♥ ♥

[salinea]

*hugs*

[bunn]

Wishing you cool water and breezes.

[lullabymoon]

*air hug*

[schneefink]

*so many virtual hugs*
That sucks, and the heat is terrible too.

I am very glad for the chances to deal with you :)

[senmut]

Offering empathy... very much so. From a personal POV.

[flamingsword]

Depression lies. Always remember that. Depression amplifies the feelings of shame, guilt, sadness, anger, and despair. It makes things that you feel seem like things that you are.

You are normally quite intelligent, emotive but practical about it, and have both depth and range of those emotions. So depression is lying to you if it says that you are not those things.