but not enough
Mar. 30th, 2022 12:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dhampyresa(Entry title from Ilya Kaminsky's We Lived Happily During the War.)
I hate not being able to do anything. I hate it SO MUCH. It's like instead of being one tightly wound spring, I'm a million tuning forks vibrating at ultrahigh frequencies.
I keep feeling guilty about the silliest, most trivial things (seriously, who gives a fuck if most of my very sporadic recent fic output is from owned-by-Disney properties?!) and about making it all about me and being a coward and lazy and not having the skills to DO anything. I don't have any skills. I'm fucking pointless is what I am. The only skill I can sort of be said to have is that I managed to run a fandom exchange almost decently for a few years. Such useful very skill wow
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Hey, do you think there'd be an interest in a pro-Ukraine/anti-war fannish fundraiser?too little too late?
I hate not being able to do anything. I hate it SO MUCH. It's like instead of being one tightly wound spring, I'm a million tuning forks vibrating at ultrahigh frequencies.
I keep feeling guilty about the silliest, most trivial things (seriously, who gives a fuck if most of my very sporadic recent fic output is from owned-by-Disney properties?!) and about making it all about me and being a coward and lazy and not having the skills to DO anything. I don't have any skills. I'm fucking pointless is what I am. The only skill I can sort of be said to have is that I managed to run a fandom exchange almost decently for a few years. Such useful very skill wow
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Hey, do you think there'd be an interest in a pro-Ukraine/anti-war fannish fundraiser?
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Date: 2022-04-02 11:25 am (UTC)I don't know if any of this is helpful to you, so please ignore if it's not, but this is what I did after the first three days of doomscrolling: I sat down, and tried to think what, if anything, I was able to do that would be of concrete help. The three things I came up with were:
1. I am safe, comparably well-paid, and with savings enough that I can make financial contributions to relevant charities/organisations. I decided that since deliberate disinformation and propaganda was upsetting me so much, I should log each instance of propaganda, and at the end of each week pay that amount to my chosen organisation. (So if I saw 10 instances, the organisation would get £10. Obviously I saw more than 10 instances...)
2. I live in a country where I have a right to freely express my opinion to my political representatives. They don't have to listen to me and they usually don't, but they can't stop me contacting them. Therefore, I write to my MP once a week and ask for more military assistance to be sent to Ukraine, and more sanctions to be applied to Russia.
3. As an ex-journalist and current information specialist, I have a degree of understanding about the spread of disinformation, and a responsibility to warn others about it, so I try to do so when I feel it's necessary.
It looks like you've done the same in terms of recognising the things you can do. A fannish fundraiser is a great idea.