but not enough
Mar. 30th, 2022 12:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
(Entry title from Ilya Kaminsky's We Lived Happily During the War.)
I hate not being able to do anything. I hate it SO MUCH. It's like instead of being one tightly wound spring, I'm a million tuning forks vibrating at ultrahigh frequencies.
I keep feeling guilty about the silliest, most trivial things (seriously, who gives a fuck if most of my very sporadic recent fic output is from owned-by-Disney properties?!) and about making it all about me and being a coward and lazy and not having the skills to DO anything. I don't have any skills. I'm fucking pointless is what I am. The only skill I can sort of be said to have is that I managed to run a fandom exchange almost decently for a few years. Such useful very skill wow
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Hey, do you think there'd be an interest in a pro-Ukraine/anti-war fannish fundraiser?too little too late?
I hate not being able to do anything. I hate it SO MUCH. It's like instead of being one tightly wound spring, I'm a million tuning forks vibrating at ultrahigh frequencies.
I keep feeling guilty about the silliest, most trivial things (seriously, who gives a fuck if most of my very sporadic recent fic output is from owned-by-Disney properties?!) and about making it all about me and being a coward and lazy and not having the skills to DO anything. I don't have any skills. I'm fucking pointless is what I am. The only skill I can sort of be said to have is that I managed to run a fandom exchange almost decently for a few years. Such useful very skill wow
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Hey, do you think there'd be an interest in a pro-Ukraine/anti-war fannish fundraiser?
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Date: 2022-03-29 10:31 pm (UTC)I have personally no idea how to organize one, but of course. It is never too late while a war is still going on. Incidentally, you are not pointless. *hugs*
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Date: 2022-03-30 10:16 pm (UTC)