Quarantine v Pain au quarant
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dhampyresaThe short version of my lockdown experience: boy, this post aged well!
Slightly longer version: basically became a cat. Being human too much worry. Only naps good. Night is basically luxury nap. No food, only nap. I handled lockdown super well, y'all! I totally didn't disappear into a vortex of grief, anxiety, depression and other fun things to the point I lost track of anything going on beyond how many relatives I had in the hospital at any given time! TOTALLY NOT.
1.1. Take everything as a compliment - during what social interaction, lmao.
1.2. One solo trip - "in these unusual circumstances"? etc
1.3. Write 75k+ words - Lol
1.4. Try new things - I bake now. Cookies are a thing that I make now.
1.5. Get better sleep hygiene - HAHAHAHAHAHA
1.6. Expand Diet - Nyeh.
1.7. Read 10 non comics books - I have basically had no brainpower (for various reasons) so I have only read roughly 1/3 of Laurent Binet's Civilisations even though it is quite fun. It's an alternate history book that makes three changes to world history: (1) The Vikings flee Vinland not back to Greenland but down the coast of the Americas, bringing with them horses, iron and some disease resistance, (2) Christopher Colombus's expedition fails abysmally and (3) Atahualpa loses the Inca civil war. All of which leads to: Inca refugiees come to Europe in the midst of the Inquisition/the Reformation. It starts slow and the writing style is sort of detached but it is super interesting. And "weird dwarf llamas" is my favourite description of sheep ever. That and I re-read parts of Dracula, because of course I did.
2.1. Zine m - The only thing I made progress on, pretty much. I am more than halfway done with the absolute minimum requirements and 1/4 done with the whole shebang.
2.2. Concrete-ify vague goals like "be better with money" or "eat healthier" or "get published" or "GIT GUD @ ART" - Not really no. I guess I made a list of things to draw that includes both things to improve and things I just like.
2.3. Read 1 book not in french or english - No.
2.4. Post 10 fic - No.
2.5. Build an item of furniture - Nope.
2.6 Bedlam - Appointment was cancelled because of Happenings, do not have a new one yet.
2.7 No hatereading that one person - Have not, though it was sometimes a struggle. Have found other assholes to read when I feel this urge.
3.1. Draw something every day - I tried? I tried.
3.2. Log all media consumption - Nope.
3.3. Be better at disengaging with unfun things - No. If anything, I got worse.
3.4. Cut nails, not chew - It was less chewing and more chomping.
3.5. Do master copies in museum - Lockdown etc.
3.6. Go to a concert. (Filled this in January, but I was supposed to be at an MCR concert right now and I am really sad about not being there.)
3.7. For each media with a dude protagonist at least one with not a dude protagonist - I think? Also Motherland: Fort Salem is quite entertaining. I like the creepy mushroom.
4.1. Finish unpacking - Am unpacked! Are things put away? No.
4.2. Zine c - No progress.
4.3. Post 1 non exchange fic - No.
4.4. Post webcomic ch1 - Ok, so. Shortly before lockdown I want to a talk (more on this later) that changed how I thought about this project so I am not sure this goal is even applicable anymore.
4.5. Do something writing related 350 days - Sure, why not.
4.6. Eat every day - Honestly, I've not had such a bad time with my disordered eating in over a decade. I've lost a not insignificant amount of weight, though thankfully not too much. Multiples days all I ate a handful of banana chips just so I could say I ate something. I'm doing better now -- dinner every day, yay? -- but I still only manage lunch half the time or less. Also I look up the calorie content of foods now, which... I've never done before. And since any amount of calories registers as "too much", you can imagine how well that's going.
4.7. Fix shoulder - Well this has definitely highlighted how sucky my posture at work is, so I guess that's good?
5.1. Get swole - No.
5.2. Be more chill - No, as the multiple people who had to suffer my middle-of-the-night angry texting about Alan Moore making Jonathan Harker turn on Mina. FUCK YOU HE WOULD NEVER I HAVE RECEIPTS: 《To one thing I have made up my mind; if we find out that Mina must be a vampire in the end, then she shall not go into that unknown and terrible land alone. I suppose it is thus that in old times one vampire meant many; just as their hideous bodies could only rest in sacred earth, so the holiest love was the recruiting sergeant for their ghastly ranks.》 Jonathan Harker's journal, October 3 (chapter 22)
5.3. Get cat - Alas.
5.4. Get back in touch with someone. (We are still in touch.)
5.5. Try one new recipe/month - Yes! I made coconut cookies and chocolate chip cookies and also I took cooking advice from Dracula -- the book, not the character. 《I dined on what they called “robber steak”—bits of bacon, onion, and beef, seasoned with red pepper, and strung on sticks and roasted over the fire, in the simple style of the London cat’s meat!》 Jonathan Harker 's journal, May 5 (chapter 1)
5.6. Relax - lmaoooooooooooooo
5.7. Vision 2020: get new glasses - Nope.
6.1. Say yes to new things more - No opportunities arose.
6.2. Take 100 pictures of birds - Took some! Including the local blue-tit. It is a terrible picture but idc.
6.3. Give blood/etc 5+ times - Once during lockdown, one in early June.
6.4. One finished art/week - I'm only working on ink works right now so if those counts, yes.
6.5. Do An Activism/month - :(
6.6. Do a con - Had a table at local con, con was pushed back to 2021.
6.7. Zine b - No.
7.1. Learn something every day - Pffffffffffffft.
7.2. Paint an oil painting - No.
7.3. Caves (1+/5) - Also no. Dreamt of it, though.
7.4. Do something in all 20 arrdt - I did go to the Pénélope Bagieu talk at the BNF in the 13ème in very early March, so there is that! It was a really good talk, I think it's meant to go up on France Culture some time this summer iirc. I especially like her idea of "the ugly book" which is a very barebones/thumbnail-y/messy version of a comic but it is a complete version of it to see how the pacing etc works. Then the "pretty book" is just drawing the pages 'properly'. I also liked how she talked about the different ways in which both of those phases are enjoyable: the ugly book is more raw and pure creation, whereas the pretty book is easier to see progress on and more relaxing. She also had interesting things to say about being a woman in the world of comics (mostly French comics but also some of her experience with translations of her work).
7.5. Draw 100 pages of comic - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
7.6. Learn a card trick - Not yet.
7.7. Finish writing TPC - Added very little but still some words.
And that was my lockdown. Tell me about anything I've missed? Both in fandom and in your lives.
I have literally dreamt of going swimming multiple times and I yearn for it on a painful, physical level. Let me return to the water.
Slightly longer version: basically became a cat. Being human too much worry. Only naps good. Night is basically luxury nap. No food, only nap. I handled lockdown super well, y'all! I totally didn't disappear into a vortex of grief, anxiety, depression and other fun things to the point I lost track of anything going on beyond how many relatives I had in the hospital at any given time! TOTALLY NOT.
1.1. Take everything as a compliment - during what social interaction, lmao.
1.2. One solo trip - "in these unusual circumstances"? etc
1.3. Write 75k+ words - Lol
1.4. Try new things - I bake now. Cookies are a thing that I make now.
1.5. Get better sleep hygiene - HAHAHAHAHAHA
1.6. Expand Diet - Nyeh.
1.7. Read 10 non comics books - I have basically had no brainpower (for various reasons) so I have only read roughly 1/3 of Laurent Binet's Civilisations even though it is quite fun. It's an alternate history book that makes three changes to world history: (1) The Vikings flee Vinland not back to Greenland but down the coast of the Americas, bringing with them horses, iron and some disease resistance, (2) Christopher Colombus's expedition fails abysmally and (3) Atahualpa loses the Inca civil war. All of which leads to: Inca refugiees come to Europe in the midst of the Inquisition/the Reformation. It starts slow and the writing style is sort of detached but it is super interesting. And "weird dwarf llamas" is my favourite description of sheep ever. That and I re-read parts of Dracula, because of course I did.
2.1. Zine m - The only thing I made progress on, pretty much. I am more than halfway done with the absolute minimum requirements and 1/4 done with the whole shebang.
2.2. Concrete-ify vague goals like "be better with money" or "eat healthier" or "get published" or "GIT GUD @ ART" - Not really no. I guess I made a list of things to draw that includes both things to improve and things I just like.
2.3. Read 1 book not in french or english - No.
2.4. Post 10 fic - No.
2.5. Build an item of furniture - Nope.
2.6 Bedlam - Appointment was cancelled because of Happenings, do not have a new one yet.
2.7 No hatereading that one person - Have not, though it was sometimes a struggle. Have found other assholes to read when I feel this urge.
3.1. Draw something every day - I tried? I tried.
3.2. Log all media consumption - Nope.
3.3. Be better at disengaging with unfun things - No. If anything, I got worse.
3.4. Cut nails, not chew - It was less chewing and more chomping.
3.5. Do master copies in museum - Lockdown etc.
3.7. For each media with a dude protagonist at least one with not a dude protagonist - I think? Also Motherland: Fort Salem is quite entertaining. I like the creepy mushroom.
4.1. Finish unpacking - Am unpacked! Are things put away? No.
4.2. Zine c - No progress.
4.3. Post 1 non exchange fic - No.
4.4. Post webcomic ch1 - Ok, so. Shortly before lockdown I want to a talk (more on this later) that changed how I thought about this project so I am not sure this goal is even applicable anymore.
4.5. Do something writing related 350 days - Sure, why not.
4.6. Eat every day - Honestly, I've not had such a bad time with my disordered eating in over a decade. I've lost a not insignificant amount of weight, though thankfully not too much. Multiples days all I ate a handful of banana chips just so I could say I ate something. I'm doing better now -- dinner every day, yay? -- but I still only manage lunch half the time or less. Also I look up the calorie content of foods now, which... I've never done before. And since any amount of calories registers as "too much", you can imagine how well that's going.
4.7. Fix shoulder - Well this has definitely highlighted how sucky my posture at work is, so I guess that's good?
5.1. Get swole - No.
5.2. Be more chill - No, as the multiple people who had to suffer my middle-of-the-night angry texting about Alan Moore making Jonathan Harker turn on Mina. FUCK YOU HE WOULD NEVER I HAVE RECEIPTS: 《To one thing I have made up my mind; if we find out that Mina must be a vampire in the end, then she shall not go into that unknown and terrible land alone. I suppose it is thus that in old times one vampire meant many; just as their hideous bodies could only rest in sacred earth, so the holiest love was the recruiting sergeant for their ghastly ranks.》 Jonathan Harker's journal, October 3 (chapter 22)
5.3. Get cat - Alas.
5.5. Try one new recipe/month - Yes! I made coconut cookies and chocolate chip cookies and also I took cooking advice from Dracula -- the book, not the character. 《I dined on what they called “robber steak”—bits of bacon, onion, and beef, seasoned with red pepper, and strung on sticks and roasted over the fire, in the simple style of the London cat’s meat!》 Jonathan Harker 's journal, May 5 (chapter 1)
5.6. Relax - lmaoooooooooooooo
5.7. Vision 2020: get new glasses - Nope.
6.1. Say yes to new things more - No opportunities arose.
6.2. Take 100 pictures of birds - Took some! Including the local blue-tit. It is a terrible picture but idc.
6.3. Give blood/etc 5+ times - Once during lockdown, one in early June.
6.4. One finished art/week - I'm only working on ink works right now so if those counts, yes.
6.5. Do An Activism/month - :(
6.6. Do a con - Had a table at local con, con was pushed back to 2021.
6.7. Zine b - No.
7.1. Learn something every day - Pffffffffffffft.
7.2. Paint an oil painting - No.
7.3. Caves (1+/5) - Also no. Dreamt of it, though.
7.4. Do something in all 20 arrdt - I did go to the Pénélope Bagieu talk at the BNF in the 13ème in very early March, so there is that! It was a really good talk, I think it's meant to go up on France Culture some time this summer iirc. I especially like her idea of "the ugly book" which is a very barebones/thumbnail-y/messy version of a comic but it is a complete version of it to see how the pacing etc works. Then the "pretty book" is just drawing the pages 'properly'. I also liked how she talked about the different ways in which both of those phases are enjoyable: the ugly book is more raw and pure creation, whereas the pretty book is easier to see progress on and more relaxing. She also had interesting things to say about being a woman in the world of comics (mostly French comics but also some of her experience with translations of her work).
7.5. Draw 100 pages of comic - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
7.6. Learn a card trick - Not yet.
7.7. Finish writing TPC - Added very little but still some words.
And that was my lockdown. Tell me about anything I've missed? Both in fandom and in your lives.
I have literally dreamt of going swimming multiple times and I yearn for it on a painful, physical level. Let me return to the water.