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dhampyresa1. Swimming: Today: 900m. (Was aiming for 1k, forgot that the actual swimming part of the swimming pool closes 30mn before the pool part.) Past total: 51 000. Current total: 51 900 / 585 689.
2. I just signed up for Chocolate Box, an experience that was... emotionally fraught. It's Not The Exchange, It's Me. I changed some wording in my letter and now I feel like a huge asshole -- also like my DNWs are completely unreasonable and I am a shit person for even having some in the first place.
3. I'm really fucking down about my art right now. Case in point, I reread True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys over the week-end and instead of being motivated to Get Better TM, I just... sat there in a daze, consumed with envy and despair over Becky Cloonan's inking skills. Fuck, idk. Maybe I should just stop. It's not like anyone would miss my stuff anyway. I try so hard to get better but I stay in place and people much newer to art than me are already miles better and I bet they're laughing at me for even trying -- you can't polish a turd, after all. Not even by drawing everyday.
2. I just signed up for Chocolate Box, an experience that was... emotionally fraught. It's Not The Exchange, It's Me. I changed some wording in my letter and now I feel like a huge asshole -- also like my DNWs are completely unreasonable and I am a shit person for even having some in the first place.
3. I'm really fucking down about my art right now. Case in point, I reread True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys over the week-end and instead of being motivated to Get Better TM, I just... sat there in a daze, consumed with envy and despair over Becky Cloonan's inking skills. Fuck, idk. Maybe I should just stop. It's not like anyone would miss my stuff anyway. I try so hard to get better but I stay in place and people much newer to art than me are already miles better and I bet they're laughing at me for even trying -- you can't polish a turd, after all. Not even by drawing everyday.
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Date: 2019-01-08 05:12 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-09 12:08 am (UTC)Thank you so much. I needed to hear that.