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[dhampyresa]

NaNoWriMo: Is it still NaNoWriMo is I'm not in the country it originated in? Inktober and NaNoWriMo being back to back is very... "I came out to have a good time and I'm honestly feeling so attacked right now", if you will. I know we're almost halfway through November, but Inktober was Intense for me. In a good way, but still. /petite nature
I couldn't get going on NaNo until L was like "write sef-indulgent garbage! write a space opera!" and I opened a new doc, titled it "self indulgent space opera garbage" and started writing EXACTLY THAT. Is there a plague doctor? Yes. Is there a lighthouse? Damn right there is. Is there a heist? Yep. Will a space station do the Paris Commune tango? Abso-fucking-lutely. Would Lovecraft be spitting mad with what I'm doing to his mythos? I fucking hope so. Does any of it tie into the rest? Who cares? SELF INDULGENT SPACE OPERA GARBAGE

Internet: I installed Leechblock on this computer today. We'll see how well it works to get me writing and/or drawing. I should put one of the enwt sketchbooks next to the computer, lol.

Art: I FINISHED A SKETCHBOOK :D for a really look time I was drawing on loose sheets -- pretty much all my "daily disaster drawings" (calling them that removes the paralysing pressure of Making Good Art) are on loose sheets of printer paper -- but sometime back I put a bunch on my drawing desk that I haven't moved yet so I took to drawing in a (surprisingly really decent) promotional sketchbook I got at a thing. I couldn't make myself draw on the first few or last page(s) (see Good Art Pressure above) but aside from those it is full! :D

Food: I spent most of the day obsessing about food/my weight. Feels bad, man. I know BMI/weight doesn't differentiate between fat mass and muscle mass, but idk, I still feel like I should weigh a lot less than I do now. Man. And I was doing so good getting a better relationship with food lately. But now it's back to not trusting myself to either starve myself or go overboard in the other direction. :/ As long as I hold true to my "no calorie counting" and "no throwing up on purpose" limits, I should be good, right? And be careful to eat 3 times every day. I hate this. Why is food. Why is me. I mean. I feel like I also have no sense of how much muscle mass I actually have? Or how much exercise I am actually doing? Is swimming 500m a good amount? Idk. Maybe I'm just frustrated because this time last year I was swimming ~2500-3000m. :( Fucking shoulder. Maybe I should do push-ups again? Idk.

Swimming: 500m. lost track a bit, so maybe 600m, but definitely 500m. Forgot my swimming glasses so ergh.
Today: 500m.
Past total: 46 950. Current total: 47 450 / 585 689.

Comments

[schneefink]

Sounds to me exactly how I imagine the spirit of NaNoWriMo :)

[isis]

I know how you feel. I used to run 50+ miles per week, now 20 miles is a good week for me. Good luck navigating those minefields.

[yuuago]

Your space opera idea sounds fun. :D

And congrats on finishing a sketchbook! That's quite an accomplishment.

[kore]

EXACTLY THAT. Is there a plague doctor? Yes. Is there a lighthouse? Damn right there is. Is there a heist? Yep. Will a space station do the Paris Commune tango? Abso-fucking-lutely. Would Lovecraft be spitting mad with what I'm doing to his mythos? I fucking hope so.

AWW YEAH

That setting sounds so fun. You could throw in AIs! Space ghosts! Interstellar succubi! Ooh, THE CYBORG WHO DOESN'T KNOW IT'S NOT HUMAN. Cynical galactic bounty hunter with a heart of gold!


Food....yeah. I have to remind myself that "if you're having problems with food, just ignoring it will make those go away!" is not actually a good option.

[eglantiere]

congrats on your filled sketchbook and your self indulgent space opera garbage! both sound delightful :D

[hamletta]

The only time I ever succeeded at NaNo was when I was ready to start a novel, had the outline and other details ready, and then just used the stimulation of doing it within a community to get the words down. That month I wrote more than I ever had in a month--but only because I was totally ready. All other times NaNo kind of happened either when I was at idea stage or (like now) editing a draft. So I do it only when it suits me. But a GHOST PRETENDING TO BE AI??? Hell, yes!!! :)

Yes, food is tough. I always struggle with my weight, but it's better to be on the plus side than being underweight. If that's your problem, don't forget to eat! <3